A moment in God’s hand

It only takes a moment for me to fall from the mountain top.
It only takes a moment for me to blow out a candle.
It only takes a moment for me to break a piece of glass.
It only takes a moment for me to give up what I’ve been trying so hard.

It only takes a moment of uncertainity for me to forget all your promises.
It only takes a moment of doubt for me to question your thougths for me.
It only takes a moment of fear for me to question your presence.
It only takes a moment of failure for me to forget that nothing is accidental in your plan for me.

All that I can seem to be able to do in a moment is destroy.
Destroy what you have built in me over a period of time.
But that’s just a moment in my hands ,O Lord,that I want to give to you,
For a moment in your hands is all that is needed for you to turn things around.

I’m gonna be OK.

Though things don work out the way I want them to,

Though plans are crushed and destroyed in a second,

Though dreams remain forever dreams,

I know, I’m gonna be OK.

Though the prize i wanted remains far from reach,

Though time never proves to be a good healer of wounds,

Though life forever is a struggle,

I know, I’m gonna be OK.

I’m gonna be OK ,for I know who is in control of my life.

I’m gonna be OK, for I know the one who is constantly in control .

I’m gonna be OK, for He said that I’m gonna be OK.

And because of Him, I know that I’m gonna be more than OK.

A new definition of family???

Till a couple of days back , it was common to have one parent working abroad and meeting the family once in a couple of yrs. n it was totally justified in our community , the most popular justification being , “they r only working to keep the family happy and provide for the needs of the kids”. But I guess times have changed and we have moved on. Now its both the parent working in different countries or places and the kids growing up with someone else.The kid has all the money he/she needs. The kid studies in the most costliest school . The kid gets everything it wants in life.The kid never hears the word “NO”. Doesn’t know what it means to be a family.

If i ask a kid like that , what his definition of a mom n dad is, i wonder what he will say.Will he ever love his parents??? I wonder if the parents love him in the first place… Its one thing if the family is in differnt places out of pure necessity for survival . But its totally different and sad when all this happens for the sake of money or even career interests.

How can we humans have come to this situation???? Have we totally forgotten what it means to be a family??? Have we totally forgotten what it means to love ??? Have we become even lesser than animals not to think about out own kids first?????? What will the kid be like when he grows up??? Will he ever know what the real meanign of love is??? Will he ever love his family and kids??? Or will they seem to him like part of a package???? Is that what life has become to us??? A package that comes along as we go??

Will things ever return to the way God meant for families to be like???

“Do not search for God at a distance when He is standing right next to your heart “

Couple of days back , I was walking to my office with 2 books in my hand . My tower is one of the mostly populated towers in EC. That morning as i walked towards it , there were quite a number of people walking with me and behind me. As i was walking ( talking to my friend ), I did not realise that I had dropped one of the books . It was a small book but not small enough to go unnoticed. It took me a while to realise that I had dropped it. So i retraced my steps and found it lying just outside the entrance of my tower. That’s when my friend commented “There were so many people walking behind us but yet none bothered to tell us when u dropped it.”

 

 

It pained me to even think about how true her statement was.Sometimes we are so caught up in our own world that we fail to look at our neighbour who might need a helping hand. All of us want to be a good person . Some of us even dream of doin great things to help others. In that process , we neglect the little things that we can do to light up somebody’s life. A thank you to the waiter who serves us. A smile to the security guard who checks our bags everyday. (It is true that it is annoying to open the bags everytime to check but then i don think they enjoy doing it either.) A smile to the lady who mops up the floor . It doesnt cost us anything but it sure lightens up their day.

 

 

I used to dream. That one day I would be rich enough to help people. I know a couple of people who are in debt. And how much it is ruining their lives. Their earning is used only to pay for the interest of the debt money and hence the debt remains . My dream was that one day when I have enough money I’m gonna help people like that so that they can start their lives fresh. Without any debt. While I havn’t given up on this dream , I also thought ,what if such a day never comes. (Now don think i’m being a pessimist. I’m just being practical).So many times i have walked away from people who asked alms.But then one dayI realised, that in dreaming big I was walking a little above the ground to really see the reality of what is happening at present.

 

 

So my decision on this??? I’m gonna help people as much as possible.Now I know that a lot people will argue saying that giving alms is encouraging people to take up begging which is not good. That it makes people lazy. maybe that is true. maybe most of the people use it in the wrong way. to earn easy money.But then there are also few really poor people who are forced into that job . what if the one person who comes to me for alms is a really poor person? I don want to walk away from that person. So what if i end up giving money to the wrong undeserving person???? Well… I’m not gonna judge. That person is accountable to God.

 

 

“Whatever you do to the least of these people , you do it unto me.” – Jesus.

IS PROVING ONESELF MORE IMPORTANT THAN THE TRUTH???

i was going thro google groups and i happened to stumble upon a group called atheism vs christianity. As it sounded very catchy , i decided to peek in. i was surprised. surprised at how active the community was . suprised at how many members it had. surprised that ppl were actually having very serious conversations. As i read thro couple of posts and topics , i was even more surprised to find all highly intellectual ppl in the conversation . ppl claiming they were scientist n researchers were having a conversation. Well , i most definitely am not in their category for i did not understand half of their arguments. Intrestingly , not many beleivers were taking part in the discussion. Most of the discussions had only atheists speaking on how absurd the concept of God is. there was this one post in retaliation to the other claims which i found very appealing. it is as follows.

There can be no such things as an atheist. This is why: Let’s imagine that you are a professing atheist. Here are two questions for you to answer: First, do you know the combined weight of all the sand on all the beaches of Hawaii? We can safely assume that you don’t. This brings us to the second question: Do you know how many hairs are on the back of a fully-grown male Tibetan yak? Probably not. It is therefore reasonable to conclude that there are some things that you don’t know. It is important to ask these questions because there are some people who think they know everything.

Let’s say that you know an incredible one percent of all the knowledge in the universe. To know 100 percent, you would have to know everything. There wouldn’t be a rock in the universe that you would not be intimately familiar with, or a grain of sand that you would not be aware of. You would know everything that has happened in history, from that which is common knowledge to the minor details of the secret love life of Napoleon’s great-grandmother’s black cat’s fleas. You would know every hair of every head, and every thought of every heart. All history would be laid out before you, because you would be omniscient (all-knowing).

Bear in mind that one of the greatest scientists who ever lived, Thomas Edison, said, “We do not know a millionth of one percent about anything.” Let me repeat: Let’s say that you have an incredible one percent of all the knowledge in the universe. Would it be possible, in the ninety-nine percent of the knowledge that you haven’t yet come across, that there might be ample evidence to prove the existence of God? If you are reasonable, you will be forced to admit that it is possible. Somewhere, in the knowledge you haven’t yet discovered, there could be enough evidence to prove that God does exist.

Let’s look at the same thought from another angle. If I were to make an absolute statement such as, “There is no gold in China,” what is needed for that statement to be proven true? I need absolute or total knowledge. I need to have information that there is no gold in any rock, in any river, in the ground, in any store, in any ring, or in any mouth (gold filling) in China. If there is one speck of gold in China, then my statement is false and I have no basis for it. I need absolute knowledge before I can make an absolute statement of that nature. Conversely, for me to say, “There is gold in China,” I don’t need to have all knowledge. I just need to have seen a speck of gold in the country, and the statement is then true.

To say categorically, “There is no God,” is to make an absolute statement. For the statement to be true, I must know for certain that there is no God in the entire universe. No human being has all knowledge. Therefore, none of us is able to truthfully make this assertion. If you insist upon disbelief in God, what you must say is, “Having the limited knowledge I have at present, I believe that there is no God.” Owing to a lack of knowledge on your part, you don’t know if God exists. So, in the strict sense of the word, you cannot be an atheist.

The only true qualifier for the title is the One who has absolute knowledge, and why on earth would God want to deny His own existence? The professing atheist is what is commonly known as an “agnostic” -one who claims he “doesn’t know” if God exists. It is interesting to note that the Latin equivalent for the Greek word is “ignoramus.” The Bible tells us that this ignorance is “willful” (Psalm 10:4). It’s not that a person can’t find God, but that he won’t. It has been rightly said that the “atheist” can’t find God for the same reason a thief can’t find a policeman. He knows that if he admits that there is a God, he is admitting that he is ultimately responsible to Him. This is not a pleasant thought for some.

It is said that Mussolini (the Italian dictator), once stood on a pinnacle and cried, “God, if you are there, strike me dead!” When God didn’t immediately bow to his dictates, Mussolini then concluded that there was no God. However, his prayer was answered some time later.

i thought that this was beautiful but someone in the community found out that the person who posted this did not write it on his own. Rather he had copied it from somewhere else. so the whole point of it was discarded saying that it’s invalid because its not hiw own writing… Now my question is… why do people have to make things so complicated when the truth is out plain open for all to see.? so what is the point of these discussions?? Is it to prove one’s intellectual ability to argue or to seek the real truth???

EGO….Too big to let go?????

It is funny how we sometimes let our ego affect our comfort.We would rather stay in discomfort than accept the fact that we need help. Last sunday night i travelled from my home town to my city. It was an over night journey and i had a ticket in one of the most comfortable buses. Though my seat was in the second last row , it felt pretty comfortable . With leg rest and push back seats…Wait a minute…. this is where i got the idea of this blog .

Let me narrate what I observed in the bus.

The bus started and I wanted to settle in as soon as possible..Thankfully the leg rest was already up(I always have trouble pulling that thing and one time i even travelled without using it because i din no how to pull that lever )Anyway back to my story. Next all I had to do was push my seat back and settle..SO i did just that. N to my surprise nothing happened… I pushed the lever a lil harder and still nothing happened. This is where a lil doubt started creeping into my mind…Am i doing it the right way???? I knew i was right but still it was not working.. So i tried again.. a lil harder this time. nothing happened… I started feeling so consious. Felt like the whole bus was looking at me (ya. I was sitting in the second last row). I tried a couple of times more and then turned back to see if the last row ppl had slept or whether they knew what i was doing… Thankfully no one seemed to be noticing… (But my mind told me that they were pretending like they din no…). At this stage the girl sitting next to me pushed her seat back and settled peacefully. I did not want to ask her how she managed to do it. And i could feel the pressure mounting on me.A friend of mine was sitting two seats away from me in teh same row. I did not want to ask him unless i had no other options. so here i was , still trying and looking behind every now n then.

And then an idea struck me. i decided to watch how other ppl would do it. so i waited. and then after what seemed like ages the guy in front of me decided to sleep and pushed his seat back… AHA !!!! i saw him do it. He did it the same way i had tried . He seemed to push the lever really hard… so i tried again… I knew i was right and that gave me strength and YIPEEEEEEEE i did it…. WHOA… what a releif… so i settled in… N that is when i realised that there were two guys in front who had still not pushed their seats back…Oh Did i forget to mention that the lights in the bus were still on???As i was watching , one of those guys (lets name him X) decidded to push his seat back. He tried but he couldn’t. Guess what he did???? The same as me …..He turned around and then did nothing for a while… Soon the other guy (lets say Y) did the same thing… It was a funny sight to see X and Y struggle without letting anybody else know what was goin on…

At this point the lights were turned off. And they did just what i expected…They both pounced on the lever..Both of them struggled so hard and eventually X succeeded . Poor Y was still struggling.And for a good 5 mins Y struggled. And finally Y accepted defeat . He got up and went in front and asked the codriver for help… Soon he was settled too….

What surprised me is that Im not the only one who is hesitant to say ‘ I cant. I need help ‘.Is it this generation???? Or is it human????

Serials……… Far from believable

I don’t understand hindi. YES ,I never learnt hindi in school. I’ve never had hindi speaking neighbours all my life.I’ve never watched hindi movies. I’ve never seen hindi serials ……..until now. Even now i don understand hindi much. But still i watch because I’m kinda forced to watch it when i have my dinner every night.So the following is my observation of hindi serials……..

1. People wake up with full make up (even in the middle of the night).

2. The characters in the serials do not work(at all). Yet they are mighty rich.

3. Most of the time they stand in circle in the living room of the house and talk.(mostly cry).

4. Nobody (I mean NOBODY) is supposed to be happy.

5. The grandmother looks younger than the grand daughter.

6. ‘You don like somebody?????? No probs. Just kill them. ‘ seems to be the policy for everyone.

7. A wedding scene will go on for weeks all together(longer than it is in real life).

I mean no offense to those who regularly and faithfully watch those serials. But these are very few of the absurd things that are shown. What i want to know is why do people watch such stuff???? It has absolutely no meaning and it is far from believable. I know that nothing that comes on TV is believable. But come on… This is just too much.

“So by their fruits you will know them. ” Mathew 7:20.

Today morning i read one of the most amazing statements I’ve ever come across . It goes like this.  ‘ The best evidence that you are alive is never your birth certificate ‘ . How true it is. It doesn’t matter how we came to know the Lord . It doesn’t matter if it was through a miracle that made us decide to trust in the Lord. It doesn’t matter if the reason we decided to trust the Lord was because of the faith our mom taught us to have. All that matters is how we are now. Are we bearing fruit????? If so , what kind of fruit?????? I think we need to take time to think about this seriously . For we know the kind of fruit that we are bearing right now. Is it what the Lord will call good fruit?????

Did we take time to read the Bible and spend a few minutes in the Lord’s presence today morning before coming to work?? We can always give the excuse that we had to leave early to catch tha bus and that the Lord will understand . Of course He will understand but still ……….. Do we consider Him important enough to spend time with HIm each morning before we start the day???

6 Good Reasons for Why i Should sit here…..

i would have loved to name this post as Why Do I Have To Sit Here – Part 3. but then i realised that i could be writing a numerous posts witht that heading… One for everytime i come to the lab for enhancement of project.On normal weeks it is twice a week occurance. But on weeks like the present one (when we work on saturdays with tue r thur time table) the posts will be 3 in no…. so i decided its time i become positive about the lab…..

• I don have to sit in theory classes . That can be much worse than this .
• I am not attending any seminars on data mining and warehousing like the one i had to attend the past 2 hrs….( Its an mca conferance…We were asked to attemd because of less crowd… boring beyond words.. the chief guest was a scientist… and everybody knows that they cant converse with normal ppl…)
• I miss having my comp in my room…So this compensates a lil bit.
• I can browse the net for 6 hrs a week.. This give s me a chanc eto update my blog n check mails…. something i could not be able to do this frequently had it not been for his lab.
• I get to take x mins break in between.. I mean not hurry up thro the break.( x ranging from 10 to 30 mins)
• Gives a chance to increase the misery of our juniors enjoying PCD lab in the next lab. ( i no thats a lil bit too mich… n i’m not that evil as i sound here)

When i started this post i was sure that i can coem up with pretty good no of reasons…but try as i did… i could not come up with any other good reasons… Maybe if anyone of u thing of any more good reasons… please leave a comment… cause i’m goona read this blog everytime i start my lab…To remind myself of HOW FORTUNATE I AM.

Friends for life (PAY)

Went to col around 11 for a family get together. ok not in coll but in jordan. So went there. Dropped my guitar in my room, Showed mom my room and ended up comin home around 3.30. And then almost immedaitely left for  yaamini’s house. Preethi was there too,,, Wat ta time we had. Talking ,talking ,pulling yaamini’s leg n more talking n talking. n then me n preethi  roamed around in the activa till 8.30. MOm was not realy pleased about the time i came home tho..

Preethi and yaamini have been my best friends for 13 yrs now… Ya thats rite. 13 yrs. we came to know each other wen we were in 4th std. n we have been the best of friends til today n im sure we are gonna remain that way til the end of r lives. We studied together till 10th and after that our studies took us  different paths….but few things that remained was the love, the respect and the feeling of friendship that we felt for each other.

Preethi is the more ambitious one with high dreams and wishes. and definitely the more studious one. been the topper all her life.My partner in crime.Fun loving and funny. Yaamini is more like the responsible one. Making sure we don stay out beyond the curfew time and making sure we behave properly wen we r outside…. She’s an extremely artistic person. Has so much of patience and gentleness in the way she handles situations. I am more like the middle character between these two.

we have nothing in common . But together we have everything. We still manage to find time for each other and always always there for each other whenevr we are needed. There’s not a thing that has happened in our lives for the past 13 yrs that the other two of us have not known abt . The crushes, the dreams, the fights , the disappointmens , the joys…….  My life has been really wonderful having preethi and yaamini by my side.